Memorial Biography
Zachary was born in England, In 1989 in a old hospital on a cold Autumn Day. He died in a old two story house in Independence, Iowa,. After England in 1990, he was a few months old , we went to Downey, Ca to live with his grandparents, Walter and Irene Pacheco. We stayed there for 5 months, until his dad's other kids caused trouble and we left for Iowa, which i curse the day I ever went there. It wasn't till 2 years later I had your one and only brother, Stuart. You graced this earth 31 years, sadly you chose to leave it too soon, you had so much more to give and share, you just wasn't with the right person. in life we make choices, in death we are at peace and death is only the beginning,
Wordsworth's "Ode on Intimations of Immortality from Recollections of Early Childhood"
What though the radiance which was once so bright Be now forever taken from my sight, Though nothing can bring back the hour Of splendour in the grass, of glory in the flower? I We will grieve not, rather find Strength in what remains behind In the primal sympathy Which, having been, must ever be. In the soothing thoughts that spring Out of human suffering, In the faith that looks through death, In years that bring the philosophic mind. And O ye fountains, meadows, hills, and groves, Think not of any severing of our loves! Yet in my heart of hearts I feel your might; I only have relinquished one delight To live beneath your more habitual sway. I love ihe brooks which down their channels fret, Even more than when I tripped lightly as they; The innocent brightness of a new-born day Tis lovely yet; The clouds that gaiher round the setting sun That hath kept watch o'er man's mortality! Thanks to its tenderness, its joys and fears; To me the meanest flower that blows can give Thoughts that do often He too deep for tears.
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Zachary Ryan McNeeley
Born at Newmarket Hospital-Studlands park, newmarket England in the County of Bury St Edmunds, Suffolk
time 2:34 in the afternoon/2 midwives attended, you weighed 8 lbs 5 oz
we were at the hospital for a week/In England they make you learn how to put a cloth diaper on a baby, feed the baby and wash the baby before you leave. The first time I saw Golden Girls was in the TV Room,
Born November 3, 1989
You were a troublesom baby, at times, always hungry, had to add rice cereal to your milk,hardheaded, stubborn, always wanted things your way, when you didnt get it, you threw a tantrum, time out didnt always work, taking away toys didnt always work, but we muddled through it.
When I left your so-called dad in 1994, I dont know what happened/ he was not the role model I thought he would be, sandy was no better.
But we both know he wasnt your real dad anyway, .
In the Hopsital I had a oppertunity , twice in fact to give you too the Bristish Orphange, and tthere you would have had better oppertunities, the sisters from the Cathgolic Church asked me, and the priest that came in to visit, I said "No, " and thanked them, In retrospect I should have, you would have had a better life, Schooling, and better oppertunities for a good living in England, No I trusted Your dad, and got nothing for it except heartache. I never told anyone , not even him, what the sister asked me, or offered, not even your brother knows. Choices, sometimes we make the wrong ones and sometimes we make the right, had I thought ahead, you would still be with us, I do Blame those in Iowa, I blame others that came into your life, now your gone, and the only thing I can do is tell your story here, I paid for the two blocks to be placed at lake havasu in your memory, they will be installed sometime in the spring, of 2022. Your grandmother and aunt Christy gave generously to cover the cost. I miss you, and halloween is approaching, I know how you loved Halloween, you were born on the 3rd of November, one day after day of the dead, November 2, a holiday widely celebrated among the hispanics, All Saints day the 1st, which was created my the catholics to legitimize Halloween or Samhain on the 31st, your grandfather Walter passed away in 2000 on the 30th of October, the 5th of Novemeber is Guy Faukes day, he was a man in the 18th century thyat tried to blow up parliment for their corruption, kinda like whats going on today with corruption, In Englan they celebrate Guy Faukes by having bonfires, then Your Aunts birthday is the 6th of Nov, and your grandfather walter's the 8th, ...........................In addition you learned how to swim quickly, loved making snow forts, when you came to live with me in California, in 2005, you went hiking, snorkeling, we had campfiries at Huntington beach, you made me a birthday cake, we went to Disneyland and Knotts Berry farm, Movieland wax museum, you went to nascar, we had good times, . Then you went back to Iowa, that was the begining of the end, should have never happend, paul Clausen is to blame for that, piece of crap that he is, he and his brothers, dirt all of them, In 2008 you went back, I tried to stop it, till this day I hate him for it, . If anyone reading this thinks I am cracy for writing, then go ahead, I am not, for this way is the only way I can deal with you being gone zach, I love you, and Miss you
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